Meet Frank, Allison, and Ben! I had the pleasure of capturing this sweet family over the weekend. Ben is so full of energy and life! The whole family has those fierce blue eyes, and they did such a wonderful job looking awesome for this session. Thanks Toler family for choosing me as your photographer! I had a lot of fun getting to know you all better 🙂
Monthly Archives: September 2010
“I want to be a grown up like you,” she said in the dark.
“No you don’t. You want to be a kid forever and ever,” I told her quietly.
“How many years are you, mommy?”
“Wow, I definitely want to be that number,” she whispered softly and yawning, almost as if it were this dreamy number where the girl turns into a princess and gets whisked away by the prince. She rubbed her eyes, and I wished her sweet dreams.
And so it has begun, I thought.
It saddens me now, my eagerness to be so grown. I understand now what was so important about my childhood. And I am saddened by this whole process of growing older, not because I don’t want to look older, but because I can’t be younger. Sure, I can still act young and do young things, but I still have to act older. I have responsibilities. Duties. Bills. We spend 15-20 years of our lives trying to be adults. And then we spend at least 40 trying to relive our childhood in any way we can (that is if we had a good one I suppose).
I have been somewhat taken aback recently as I look at myself in the mirror. My face, while fairly wrinkleless, still shows signs of age. I look different from how I picture myself in my head. The other day Baby Love and I found ourselves in the midst of a bunch of high school kids coming to our local college to visit representatives from other colleges. As we both watched them pass, laughing and talking amongst themselves, I found myself desiring to walk amongst them, for in my head, I am still one of them and I on some levels view them on the same playing field of life as me, or vice versa maybe. Yet, they look at me so differently. As they walked, and watched Baby Love play on the bricks, they looked at me like an adult, a mother, perhaps a wife, but most importantly older and not in the same stage of life as them. And honestly, I was not happy with their looking, with what I saw on their faces. It wasn’t mean or hostile. It wasn’t mockery or rudeness. It was simply how I looked at someone my age when I was in high school. And I was sad. And I am sad.
I know my children will do exactly as all children do and have done for centuries. They will play mommy and doctor and teacher. They will desire to do all the things the older children do. They, too, will not be able to see with their eyes open until they are older and it is too late to go back. They will want to grow up.
The thing about childhood is it is the period when we spend our time the best, not squandering it at a computer or in front of a tv, at work or paying bills. It’s the time when we’re freest, the time when we’re best able to explore and learn. It’s a few short years of really enjoying life in its simplest and purest state. And unfortunately, there is absolutely no getting that back. I will always encourage my children to remain children for as long as they can. I refuse to allow our home and our lives to be conducive to inappropriate aging. I know they will grow up, but they don’t need to do it too soon.
A little different today. I couldn’t have a post without a picture! This is actually a collage that I did while at North Carolina School for the Arts in 1996. As you may can see, I had issues with time then too.
You may remember some of the gals in this session from a few months ago when I did their Father’s Day shoot. Well this time, we added Maria’s sister, Anna, and Anna’s kids, Erin and Cody! They were all fantastic and so much fun to photograph! These cousins are super close, and I can really see the love between them. I’m so glad to have opportunities to get to know my church family better and to see them interact with their own families! It really is a huge blessing! Thank you Maria, Anna, Hannah, Erin, Cody, and Emma for being so natural and so fun! You all are definitely easy to photograph!
This family goes to my church, and they really are so much fun! While Melanie worked hard to make sure everyone looked good, Mitch really did his part to try and make everyone smile! Thank you both so much for your efforts in making this a great shoot. I really enjoyed catching a glimpse of your family 🙂
I cannot tell you how thrilling it is as a photographer to have someone literally ready, willing, and able to do whatever my little heart desires! It’s such an awesome feeling to see what’s in my head come to life and actually be even better than I had expected! Rebecca rocked this session, and we had so much fun! She is a beautiful woman inside and out, full of spark and spunk, and just plain fun. Rebecca, thank you so much for humoring me and for taking so much time out of your busy schedule to work with me on putting this session together!
“I’m sorry to say
so but, sadly it’s true
that bang-ups and hang-ups
can happen to you.”
We had such a great time hangin’ out with our community yesterday at our local festival! Neither Big Love nor Baby Love had a nap. They were dirty, grubby, sticky little creatures after running amok, playing in the dirt, riding rides, and eating snow cones. Both of them remained happy, however, until Baby Love lost her snow cone ice. The snow cone maker had actually just made them a snowball. Finally, Big Love’s snowball melted until she could no longer hold it. She said, “Oh noooo!” Looked at it a few seconds, and then went over to the curb and did this, where I happily took her picture and tried not to fall over laughing.
I have to admit though, I actually stomp my feet when I’m disappointed….well, only sometimes. 😉
It’s amazing to watch the girls develop a love and respect of the ocean, to recognize it’s vastness. And it’s amazing to see hubby there as well because he detests the ocean. Yet for 3 years he’s gone and every year he does more and challenges himself to try more, and I am amazed and honored by the love that is shown to his family through his participation. Essentially, it’s his willingness to go that allows us to go to the beach since a family vacation is not a family vacation unless the whole family is present (at least not to me).
- This one of Sam was taken by my mom 🙂