It’s inevitable. Really. It never fails that I go grocery shopping on a cloudy day and walk out into a diluge (cloud to ground lightening and hail included)…with two young children. One of which is screaming because she’s getting wet (insert Peanut) and the other laughing her head off because she’s getting wet (insert Bean). And then there’s me, cursing myself for not bringing an umbrella and ticked off at the rain for ruining my day. I am never prepared for the rain. I never have an umbrella on a cloudy day. This, too, is the case in my life. I’m always shocked that I get caught in a diluge. I’m not sure why. You would think that after hundereds of catastrophes that I would be ready for Murphy’s Law, but I’m not. Not ever.
When I think things are progressing and going well in my life and/or marriage, the clouds come but I never ready myself for the rain. I think I’m just learning to trust God and go with the flow. I know in some cases it’s good to be prepared…emergency funds, college savings, retirement. They are all good things. But for day to day life? How do you prepare for that? How do you prepare for a catastrophe? How do you prepare for the ups and downs? You don’t. I’ve found that being unprepared in certain circumstances has really strengthened my trust in and relationship with God.
Bloke and I have been on a roller coaster since we reconciled. It’s been crazy. Really. Really. Crazy. I’ve had so many many moments where I just begged God for relief even for just one moment. It’s been one rainy day after another interspersed with some moments of sun for our family. We may be soaked, but we’re still alive and, really, all the better for it. Because each storm we make it through on this journey is strengthening us as a family and individually. Each storm refines us to look more like Christ hence glorifying Him.
So that’s my journey as of now…a series of storms with maybe a chance of sun and at the end of the week some sanctification. Now, I have to go put some clothes in the dryer.
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Corinthians 4:17-18